"U should have said sumthing!' I said to oldest daughter this morning as she got out of the car. Its something that was verbally expressed and something thats weighed on my conscious my whole life. However, today the tone and accuracy of my words were directional for my daughter's sake. As the words were expressed there was no lingering guilt. Those words became hers to own at a later date in her young life . For me it was a step forward as I reflect on why that same sentiment endangered my life in the past with shame and disgust. It turned me into a mute, someone without any sense of communication. Thoughts that were buried so deep that darkness filled the void between language, emotions and vocality. I was silent.